“I’ll Never Leave You”

“I’ll never leave you,” he says.

“Even if we break up, I’ll still be here.”

We were friends before lovers.

So look at us now,

Not lovers, less than friends.

You blocked me and shut me out

When I was trying to learn to be better.

Learned all my fears to use them against me.

I begged you that this wouldn’t happen.

I begged that you wouldn’t walk away.

You promised me you’d say.

Now look where we are today.

Right as I lost everything.

As the person I most trusted turned against me.

You took that as your chance to leave

Now I truly have no one.

Yk it’s funny you used to make so many promises.

And now I’m sitting here with the broken pieces of them all.

Yea that’s right, you didn’t keep a single one.

No matter how small.

You broke every single promise you ever made.

Couldn’t even remember my birthday.

I spoiled you too damn much, wasted time energy and money.

You didn’t deserve that from me after everything you didn’t do.

I really used to believe my temper was the issue

But the only issue we ever had was you.

You shutting me down and out and expecting me to know and force you to say the words eating you away.

You saying I’m too defensive and aggressive and offensive

But maybe you’re just too fucking possessive.

Gotta know my every move,

Always has a problem with the people i choose.

Because those people were never you, I didn’t leave them feeling like a piece of shit.

Or like I’m ruining a good thing.

But what we had was never good.

Therapist says you made me a Booty call.

Aunt says you gave me nothing at all.

But I disagree, you gave me one thing.

I now know that I AM deserving.

I know now that what you did was less than bare minimum.

And I deserve so much more than that from a friend, and especially lover.

You were never the person I hoped you’d be.

Not the person you showed to me.

But that’s okay, it’s just meant to be.

Another lesson I’ll learn eventually.