Suffering In Silence

I don’t know how to express this feeling that keeps me up at night.

I don’t know how to tell you I’m not alright.

Every “goodnight”, a blow to the heart,

As you leave, before I get a chance to start.

Everything I’ve left unsaid, slowly eating me alive.

And when you walk away, all the old feelings are revived.

How tired and lonely I truly am on the inside.

I’m reaching for you, hoping you’ll save me from this backslide.

I’m so sick of the emptiness, of feeling alone,

Of sitting in silence for the sins I’ve yet to atone.

I desperately hide my lack of enthusiasm for life,

And you don’t seem to notice, I hold at my wrists a knife.

I’m glad you’re happy, and have found your peace.

But on my own, I’ve signed a lease.

I need you here, but you seem so far…

And I more than fear I’ll leave a scar.