“Deserve”

I don’t deserve to be treated this way,

But I don’t deserve love either.

I don’t deserve someone who’d stay.

I’d just make the noose tighter.

What do you deserve? A hand to hold?

While I cry silently alone at night.

I’ll shut up and do as I’m told,

If that’ll make you feel alright.

I hope that wherever you are,

You find happiness and love true.

And know that I am never far,

And that I will never forget you.

I deserve to be held onto tight,

While I cry away my aches and pains.

Not someone who gives up the fight,

Or who pulls too hard on the reigns.

Someone who’s kind and listens to me,

While I complain about the little things.

Who will do their best to be comforting,

Makes me laugh and helps spread my wings.

I deserve more than I could ever admit.

Because I am broken down and lost,

If you get too close, you’ll wish you’d quit.

I’m not worth the price it’ll cost.

As a friend or lover, you’ll find me unfit.

You’ll wish our paths had never crossed.

So with this blade, my wrist I’ll slit,

So I never have to feel the loss.